I collected my DB DVD from the post office this morning on my way to work. Spent my smoko breaks at work examining every inch of the packaging, the pictures, the art work and the words - along with segments from The Miami Times that padded the box sent from Dan.

I knew I was going to be frightened by Triage, so I started at the beginning with the Boomtown video, the surprise of being able to finally visualise the voice I have cherished, that has been like a comforting lullaby for so many many years, coming to life in front of me was almost surreal.

I wasn't prepared for Triage and the uncontrollable flood of tears that has left me drenched & disabled. I am no longer the person I was this morning. If there is a God, he'll let me fall asleep tonight and steal my soul away and save me from the tomorrow I don't wish to see.