Any suffering you feel is due to identifying with the ego called 'Green Mountain'.

Green Mountain as we all know has no inherent existance, nor does Mick, nor does the Buddha, the Dharma or Brad. Get your hands on a book called Buddhist psychology by Caroline Brazier (I think) and you will see how the pain you experience comes about. It is not real has no lasting quality to it, stops you from living in the present moment and hurls you about on the waves of Samsara. You do not have to reconvert or unconvert from your core Christian beliefs. Do not run form the pain, do not embrace it...just leave it where it is...