Jeez. That was way too pretentious a wide-eyed insomniac’s overeager late night attempt to define something ultimately inexpressible and too deeply personal for print…even on the dbis. No doubt too much creepy for a public post, anyway. I don’t know, ...you try to be a diligent dad, you know? But there in the mix, the cosmic soup that is each person’s um… day-to-day growth of understanding (& it’s doubly tough to be a teen heading into his 20s today) absorbs far more than what was certainly a meaningful home environment. As you know from your own experience, all sorts of individual home environments are expressed by one’s entire circle of friends (face-to-face and via constant digital media today) and is soaked up …along with the daily machinations and experiences, good and bad, to shape a perception. & the stew has gone sour, rancid even; there are some really f#cked-up sorts...even more fu#ked-up than the fuc#ed-up sorts you or I knew. Even if, like DB (has discussed in print), you came up around the Less Than Zero set, …which I believe is the ‘80s version of the circles my son is moving in (minus Beverly Hills, …etc.). Offspring of parents that just did not have the time ..or the inclination, & they are bound & determined to express their free-will, and there is an effect on everyone around them who is at an impressionable age of youth and possibility, blah-blah-blah, and even those who don't buy into it are rubbed by it, brushed with it, effected, infected, & at this point, even with an open mind, I’m bummed-out, to say the least, and worrying over my kid. ...I hope he can weed through it, ...we remain sanctuary, ...but...you're leaning towards the dark siiide, Luke.
&…in my shock and awe response to many an unexpected road being traveled, presently, I’ve gone beyond scratching my head to a more fretful way of overanalyzing..maybe too much around the place, hey…it’s a heavy decade…you know it.
But this is a written-word medium …and so …
making with the written words …right or wrong …creepy or not. We, people, make our stands…on shaky ground.
It is communication (in it’s surviving/persevering 21st Century form, …for whatever it’s worth), and so…
...& so...
