Almost in fetal position wrapped in a blanket. Went to bed around 12 or 12:30 and because I was so tired and I thought I had left most of it on the field. There was more I'm sure I could have done but I can't do anything about that now. I was snuggly under my blanket and almost asleep at 1:55 when a text from our family text group came through. It was from my MAGAt ex-husband "AMERICA IS SAVED!!!!!!!!"  Not wanting to start anything, I just replied "Not quite." He couldn't leave it alone...texted rows of American flags so I went off on it. Big Time.  Did I mention, that his current political affiliation while not THE reason I left definitely played a part in our divorce so this was to irritate and aggravate me, which he did.

Anyway, that 1.5 hours was the only real time I got to lay in a fetal position wrapped in a blanket! Wednesday night, a small group of woman meet via Zoom and so they could vent, cry, scream, talk it out, get support, whatever. This coming Wednesday, we're meeting to set up next steps for liberal women at all levels of experience. I was also approached by someone from a neighboring congressional district about talking to local dems about what they would have like to have seen changed in the campaign or what Dems need to  change. 

I went to a Paulding Democrats lunch today, attended by 32 people, which was a great turnout. I noticed there and on social media, that many people were starting to express a great deal of rage. I started that yesterday. Have y'all started doing that yet? I've been screaming, not yelling, at the radio and rage texting one of the last MAGAt friends I have left, pretty much finally cutting off that friendship once and for all.

I have, over the last few years, started feeling more comfortable having magnets on my car or wearing Kamala or other Democratic t-shirts. In the last couple of days, I don't know if I should. I think I'll probably just take the magnets off of my car and I'll probably be pretty much ok with whatever political attire I wear. I'll be able to tell if the atmosphere is getting tenser. I just can't believe this is where we are but I know I'm not alone. I'm not alone in not believing where we are and I'm not alone where we actually are.