At least you are honest about it David and I have to respect that. Faith is an odd animal and your post prompted me to pray for Dan again. I've lost several very close friends and my father(devastating) to Cancer. Its very ugly. Sometimes a prayer for your faith might come from someone unknown to you. One day you just understand and cant quite explain why. Faith certainly is not anything as cerebral as CS Lewis makes it. But he certainly was a scholar that understood it.