i don't know man, ...just can't seem to shake it anymore. i suppose that’s when you know the true disillusion has won over. intellectual apathy has never been my strong suit, so it’s all in my face...and inescapable ~~ in your face too, really, and…how we cope is to each her/his own.

…but I cannot for the life of me remember the joy we used to know. it's all one big plastic package hanging from a hook now. McCandless didn't have a death wish, he had a life wish!

even when I make love (which remains way up there on my list of favorite activities) or watch my sons as humans being (which is the only immaculate counted blessing other than my best girl's smile), there’s still an aching hollowness in knowing so wrong an age is coming to pass.

If we had never known what we surely did come to know for a while there, then maybe it wouldn’t suck so bad to find ourselves being stampeded over a cliff by insane bankers. & those who’ve perhaps never really known it are now so content in rubbing our duped American noses in crow. But who really is in the right mind, & who just gave up and took to crossing everything out with a scurry of free-thinking nihilism? I fuck-all, therefore I am.

Just because some fucks in a shit land have decided that life is war and some other fucks behind stone walls have decided that people are cattle and all that is needed in life is all the gold in the world and a few indentured servants to warm the milk and bath the royal testicles, doesn’t mean this isn’t a monumental tragedy.

We had everything we needed. Everything...to make a go at living. But no, ………………….we’ve got to let them prove it Hell on Earth.

& for what?

but then I'm not supposed to speak frankly on a flip & sarcasm forum

[[[[[[[[[[The best-laid plans of mice and men]]]]]]]]]]

just point me in the direction of a new renaissance opiate...

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